More Changes

So Josh and I have had to make some big decisions lately. I don't know if people know this but I was supposed to go back to work on May 9th which was the end of my maternity leave. To my shock my job was no longer available. Everyone in my department had been laid off. It was upsetting but at the same time I was like okay well I will just get another job. I have now been trying for 2 months and haven't gotten anything. We had moved to Amador County last year from Oroville and its a smaller county with not much opportunity and more expensive. So we are having a hard time now financially and don't want to get deep and would rather be proactive than reactive.

So we have decided we have to move back to Oroville. We can get an place to live for a lot cheaper almost half of what we are paying here and the opportunity for me to find a job is better in that area. This is very hard because we do love where we live and will miss Josh's family but we have to do what we can as a family. Also we will be breaking our lease and not sure the repercussions yet with our landlord but we are in a bind and know if we continue to stay here we will get behind and it will be worse in a few months. So we can only pray that everything will work out.

So anyone that does read this blog if you could include our family in your prayer's that we can find peace in the move and that we can allow God to guide us through this rough time.

Thanks

My bubba

Lyric is just so amazing. I love this little man more and more every moment of every day. He is so happy in the mornings and his personality is shinning. He wakes up and coos and giggles playing by himself. He smiles so much during the day and "talks" to his daddy all the time.

So here is my baby with so much cuteness I can't stand it!

Holy Pee

So i just changed the heaviest diaper full of pee in my life! Lyric was napping and suddenly woke up screaming. I am getting used to his cries and can tell usually what is wrong. Right away I thought oh he probably peed out of his diaper onto his clothes cause he hates that. Well thankfully it wasn't on is clothes but it was sagging so bad.

Right after I got it off, wiped him down and put the new diaper on him he immediately fell back asleep.

Hilarious!

What a difference a year makes

So Im sitting here thinking about my one year wedding anniversary next month. It so crazy to think its been a year. I think because we have had so many huge changes within this year it feels like we have been married so much longer. Here are the changes we have had since getting married: moved 2 1/2 hours away, got pregnant, learned how to communicate and live as partners, had a wonderful baby boy, dealt with money and job problems and still came together every day as husband and wife.

My husband is truly my best friend and the one person I know loves me unconditionally. With all our ups and downs this past year the best times I have had have been with my husband and now our baby. He has given me the best gift of Lyric and I never thought I would become a mother and he gave that to me even if it was a surprise!

Josh is the most loving, thoughtful, funny, caring, strong husband and father. As our year anniversary approaches I will just focus on the life I have and the gifts I have been given. I am very blessed and sometimes I allow myself to go to a blue place.  Now I just have to figure out an amazing special surprise for him to due on June 12th....not sure yet but I want to do something for him so that feels so loved. It has been a hard few months since having the baby and my emotions all crazy so I need to spend our anniversary thanking my husband for everything.

 Our wedding day :)

 Our first Christmas as a family (baby Lyric in my belly)

 Wedding day again :)

Trip in October 2010

Sad

So Im watching some stupid talk show while Lyric is sleeping and I find it so sad. These women have so many children and testing all these men to find out who that daddy is and there is amazing men and women out there dying to get pregnant. It is just sad. I don't understand sometimes why some people are able to bear children and sometimes multiple times when others struggle so much.

I don't know if I will ever understand that and I know that is something that I pray about all the time to try and have peace about with God.

Crib time?

Looking for some advice from the other moms out there. I still haven't put Lyric in his crib yet for a nap let alone to sleep at night. He is now 2 months old and the other girls in my breastfeeding support group say their daughters have been in their crib since 6 weeks or earlier. Im wondering if anyone has tips or ways I can start to transition him to the crib. I love to cuddle with him and I hardly put him in his bassinet anymore I just put him in bed with us. I do know that I want to have my bed back to just me and my husband but I just don't know how to start.

Thanks :)

Medical News

So I have had some medical issues since having Lyric and now its come to a head. I don't want to get all into things on the blog and stuff but I just ask anyone who does read my blog to pray for me. I just want to have a clear picture of what it might be so I can deal with the reality of it all.

Thanks :)